Strange Mind, isn't it..

Today somehow i got to read one blog which made me think about it. And here it goes in form of blog. that blog was written by harshika sethi. I met her only once few days back when she visited Mumbai for her exam. Quiet an interesting gal. http://girlwithsmallhands.blogspot.com/2009/12/letting-go.html is the blog.

Here she has written about her discussion with her uncle which was quiet an interesting topic. My opinion about mind working was always fascinating. I think human mind is most interesting and nicely crafted thing god has ever created. Because it's the worst thing and the best thing for the world. Any day one worst and capable mind can spoil full earth and one great and capable mind can turn earth in a very beautiful place to live[more than current, it's my favorite planet.. as never been to any other planet :)].

In that blog she wrote how your memories fade away along with time. I totally agree with that as from few year back i started to realized that i have lost few memories of my childhood but the good thing is if you start recalling those you can recall with a little effort now.. but as one become older. It get more harder to recall such sweet memories. I do recall those days every now and then while laying on the bed and trying to sleep. Year by Year, month by month, day by day.. seriously i can recall only few shots of my LKG :(. I wish i could have a camera then to keep every shot along with me to recall. You i use to think i was studying in a very big school (by size) but when i visited it when i was of age 20 that time i realized it was a small one. I remember my 2nd class. When i was playing in the class room with divider and my teacher came from back to slap me on my head but as human nature i tried to save myself and divider goes right in her palm. shit scary memory it's as fresh as happens yesterday. i can recall the cover of pencil box i was using that day [it was pink].

I think people can remember things they want to remember. Because they do recall those quiet often. Those memories can be good and can be bad... but for sure one can't forget the special one's like first kiss.. first girl friend. Like i can remember how i proposed my first girl friend.. shit i was so nervous. She had seen my legs shaking in nervousness. :) nice feeling. Got smile on face... But here are some bitter one also which need not to be written to think about them any more needlessly.

Hope people will start recalling their life old memories time to time and often so those memories remain fresh and alive. Otherwise as harshika has said mind will heal those memories and in my words mind will erase that content from memory to free up some space, so it can be used for newer content. :) technical and geeky ?? leave it then go with harshika's words keep remembering good memories to keep those alive !!!!

Windows Folder Size 9.10 GB

Hmm....

Windows strikes again. Today i noticed my system doesn't have any space left to save even a zip of pictures from internet. After a slight investigation i was sure that windows is doing something goofy stuff. My system's C:\Windows folder was taking 9.10 GB of HDD space. After 30 minutes i am able to reduce it to 5 GB which is still big but i can live with it right now.

So following are the step which might help other also. Deleting the folders can safe space but do it on your own risk as it can lead you from no turning back stage

1. Delete "C:\WINDOWS\Downloaded Installations"
2. Delete "C:\Windows\$NtUninstall*****" folders These folders are hidden...
3. Delete "C:\Windows\$hf_mig$"
4. Check for file "C:\Windows\MEMORY.DMP" if present delete.
5. Delete "C:\Windows\Prefetch"

I had to check now another folder called C:\Windows\Installer this folder holds the unistallation files of application you install on your computer. But if you manually delete the applications then MBs of space is occupied by uninstallation files will remain in this folder for eternity. just use following command if you have installed the window installer cleap up utility already other wise install. After installation go to programfiles folder and in there you will get Windows Installer Clean Up folder. In that there is a command line tool which can be used to remove orphan uninstallation files from C:\Windows\Installer. Type the command given on command prompt once you are in same directory on command prompt.

C:\Program Files\Windows Installer Clean Up>MsiZap.exe G!

this command will helped me free 100s of MB space on my disk.

Following are few more thing which helped me to gain 6GB space from 4GB. I stopped the restore points. Use Control Panel, System, System Restore. After this i moved page file as system managed from a high value saved by me last year when i had enough space.  :) hehehehe

Ok now i have enough space to happily write this blog... Hope this help others also..

The guy named Raja !..

Yeah.. Some people have guessed it correctly.. I have a very good frd whose name also start from R.. but writing about him is something will take 4-5 blogs and then also i can't finish that. But this blog is about people i met in mundane moments, let me clear the meaning of the title of this blog. This blog is about how Raja named people has a good impact on my life not about A Guy named Raja.

One more important thing is why i took this much long time to write this specific blog. Actually i was studying the IT Act 2000 and IT Act 2008. So i will not lend up in any trouble again. Anyway last time also i was safe but i removed that blog "A Company without name" because i didn't wanted to hurt anyone's feelings through my blog. Sole intention of my blogs are to share my exp. with others [not only to a specific group]. 

Very first encounter with Raja named guy was when i was of 10-11 year old. I was traveling towards my grand pa's place. This guy met me in bus. He was coming back from Dubai and being naughty enough i got attention from fellow passengers from bus. He played along with me for an hour and introduced me with my first foreign currency. Yeap i got 10 Dirham from him.

Next guy named rajai met was around 4 year ago. Yes he is the one most of you were waiting to read about. What i am going to write about him. There is nothing new what i want to write as i know him very little only on the professional front i come to know about him. Very first time when i met him he had to take my interview. That time i wasn't very good in communicating and a bit less in confidence. But i don't know how come i cracked the interview and got the job.

Later during the probation period once i told Raja i don't want to work anymore here. That time he taught me how to fight till the victory. He sat with me for next 2-3 hours and shown me anything is not impossible. [Ya some people can think i am just writing, but this is what my first impression about Raja]. Later There were many time when my office mates ask me to get some permissions from Raja by saying "Go ask your brother". And i never felt bad as this is the way i use feel about Raja. There was another incident when we in office were talking about how bad i feel in being the company and in bangalore. One of my frd in office wrote a mail and shoot that to Raja from my mail-id about my resignation [some 1 and half year ago from when i actually left that company]. That time also i just have to tell raja there was a mistake on adding mail address at To field. If it would be any other management person it could be a big scene.

I never like when he use to utter the F word. This i told him also. I never liked when he use to be like other management guys. I don't know whether i was wrong in thinking that he is different from others or he was one of them. I learnt from him many good things which are helping me till now.

The biggest reason i left that company was him. As i started feeling like i have lost the mentor-ship. His guidance became limited and i had to interact with someone not at all likable person.  I have observed that during that period he was a bit diff. a bit tense, rash, angry  which wasn't his attribute as par my knowledge. Hope if he is feeling any problem soon those will resolve and he will become the same. Guiding and teaching newbies. I heard from some of new company fellows that it's reverse of my exp. for them as being a newbie in that company. I hope they will get the same raja as i got to know. Where i use to talk him as freely as i can talk with any of my frd, i hope others can do the same.

Yes i know many of you might not find this blog as interesting as my other blogs might be. But this blog was actually scheduled after my blog "A Company without name.."  but due to some reason it got delayed and lost the impact on readers. Anyway better late than never.


[Added after first published]

Overall i consider him a gentleman. He taught me how get and handle a true feedback.One of my frd asked me you should have balls to write about raja [Second in this blog]. Then i thought why i should fear for truth. Only fear is he shouldn't feel bad as he is a imp. person in my life who taught me many things for good.

Kissa Yoni ka....

Friends don't be surprised. There is nothing pornographic about this blog. This is the title of a play i saw yesterday. I watched this play at legendary "Prithvi Theatre" where raj kapoor and prithvi raj kapoor had once upon a time performed.

This is the first play i have seen in Mumbai. It was great experience to be touched by a vertical at which this city is best, "ACTING". Icing on the cream is the topic of this play.... yes it's very bold title, actually it's translation of play called "The vagina monologues". This play is written in 1996 but one of my frd told that this is a 30 year old play :) .... sorry bro it's my nature i don't trust till i am done with my research. I was stunned by the way actors performed the play. This play reflects the sex, relationships, and violence against women. YES violence against women which most people think it's the thing from history but still i think i have over heard some of the incidents which made me think that violence against women still exist in this whole world but not only in India, and not only in non-developed countries. This can happen anywhere on this planet with the help of a psycho/stupid person. So point is this happens and this is what the play try to cover and tell each of it's viewers that think and avoid this violence, to all of it's female viewers it tells don't be shy about your own body part and don't neglect/avoid it.

(Taken from Wiki and bold part is addition from me)
Some monologues include:

• I Was Twelve, My Mother Slapped Me: a chorus describing many young women's and girls' first menstrual period.
• My Angry Vagina, in which a woman humorously rants about injustices wrought against the vagina, such as tampons, douches, and the tools used by OB/GYNs
• My Vagina Was My Village, a monologue compiled from the testimonies of Bosnian women subjected to rape camps.
• The Little Coochie Snorcher That Could, in which a woman recalls memories of traumatic sexual experiences in her childhood and a self-described "positive healing" sexual experience in her adolescent years with an older woman. In the original version, she is 13, but later versions would change her age to 16. This particular skit has sparked numerous controversies and criticisms due to its content (the play i seen told her age was 13).
• The Woman Who Loved to Make Vaginas Happy, in which a dominatrix for women discusses the intriguing details of her career and her love of giving women pleasure. In several performances it often comes at the end of the play, literally climaxing with a vocal demonstration of a "triple orgasm." [Performed by Rasika Duggal and she was too good in her act and yes she was also pretty more than she looked in Agyat's (movie) pics ]
  
• Because He Liked to Look At It, in which a woman describes how she had thought her pubic area was ugly and had been embarrassed to even think about it, but changed her mind because of a sexual experience with a man named Bob who liked to spend hours looking at it. [Performed by Rasika Duggal and it's was too good to see her act and her too ;)]
  
• I Was There In The Room, a monologue in which Eve Ensler describes the birth of her granddaughter.

This play and after that a healthy debate with my room-mates left me in thought that is it right to project only one side of coin or is it really not possible to project/draw a full picture???? Many thoughts and More than that questions after these question very less answers left in mind. Mind is totally jinxed with so weird thoughts. Being in Indian family i know what a woman has to go thorough on the name of tradition and culture. But thanks to my parents [Might be because they don't have daughter which they would love to have one] they always told me to respect a woman/girl/female. Is it the same in many Indian families ? No !..... One of my frd [who is a FEMALE] who was not allowed to choose his spouse but she went with her own choice and married to her chosen of man [ Happiez endingz ]. So !... the contrast exist in our lovely India so does in world.

Play was so powerful and on some occasions extra vulgar which can be avoided [yes few frds will be not agree on vulgar but it's my opinion]. People argued me that that thing which u felt as extra vulgar was an art but i think spreading the message without being vulgar would be more beautiful art.

One more good thing i seen in the play was the courage to speak the [publicly] unspoken words. No matter how comfortable you are with your frds on speaking these words still there should be some kind of dignity while using the these unspoken words. One should chose carefully what (s)he is going to use in these kind conversation. Yes i can speak/discuss on any kind of topics with my frd [Point to be noted frds it doesn't matter frd is male or female and my frd knows it] thanks to my parents who gave me this much direction that i can choose what is wrong or right. Even if i choose wrong i come to know what is wrong :) so i can choose right next time. I guess this courage to speak unspoken words in a decent way people can get only from the family where they might have to be in the dignity ;) so don't be shy if your younger family member try to ask you about these unspoken words and give them a easy environment so they don't need to deal these words/topics as untouched, which can avoid a lot of problems.

So over all i feel it was a good experience to see that play. Some of the struggling actors were there too. Theatre in juhu was also very nice and interior was no less than great.

More than 3 Lacs in 4 Months

Hi Again to all,
Just few minutes back i have realized that there has done transactions of more than 3 lacs from me in last 4 months. Vivek [My college Jr.] and one of my room mate has done cross verification of calculations to make sure i haven't done wrong calculations as par habit. Now again why i am writing this.. because i want to write it :) . Anyway jokes apart actually i wanted to make a note for myself that i don't have to spend this much loose way again in future. Yes i admit people can think that this is for show off but frds just think now i don't have money for anything so what is there to show off. I have taken money from saving hence i have to start savings again. I have to lend money from frds to get bread and butter for next 10 days (Thanks to ram). For sure i haven't done any great thing with this money . I am really feeling ashamed after getting this reality in front of me. I could have purchased a car from this much money.. i could have invested this money in equity. I could have done many more other things which i have planned (I guess u know what i am pointing at Aravind M.). Yes i have done some purchasing for home but that's again a responsibility which one have to follow. Anyway no point on trying to make excuse, as i am the person who is responsible for making a way out of this mess.
following are the figures from credit cards and ATM cash withdrawal i come to know :-
Credit Card :- 201319.05 /-
Cash withdrawal :- 99445 /-

too much regret but i have to do something to overcome.. totally down to dust.. had to recover financially. will be back soon as wealthy Virat.. :) kidding again

Indian Individuality

Hi All,
I have been thinking about this from last few days. As in last few days i have met people from a special category to which many Indians belong. I have met many like them.. (i am not quiet sure if i belong to this specific category, please do post a comment if i am so.). Many of us [Indians, from now on i will be saying we for Indians and I for myself in this blog] don't even think about their own existence in this world. What they are doing what they should be doing. We people usually take cover of a group to which we are a part. whatever that group think we think, whatever that group like we like, whatever that group feel we feel. Where is the our own individuality??

When we will become mature enough to take our own stand. What WE like, we like! no matter anyone else like or not. I have seen and often get irritated with people who can't even say few words for their own will, wish and likings. Many of this kinda person always try to be in a group. They always speak when they are in a group who back them. Here one shouldn't take a wrong note that i don't like to be in group. I always had a big group of frds around me since college. Since i have started working i got few really good frds. But the point i want to make is i never try to follow what my mates are liking until i like that too. One can face these kind of followers very easily.
First sign of this kind of followers is [Please cross check you might be in that category also], they are much quiet when they are communicating with you one on one.
Second these fellows follows jackals who speak in chorus, meaning they try to back each other for anything, whatever one of them has said. Without even having a clue what they are trying to backup. ok ok sometime they have an idea whatever they are trying to backup is wrong! But still they do backup it because later sometime in future they might need this backup to speak up.
[Update on 31st Oct'09]
Third After finishing the statement they ask "Kyun sahi kaha na", "Achcha tum kho galat to nahi kaha na" to their group members.
Rest i leave on you fellas to write in on comments... if you can figure out the ones what i have already.

Ok now why i have been thinking about this so seriously? Good question !.. actually i really feel bad when i realize that i am living in a country which has world's second largest population and still we people have to look at other countries for world's best in any field. Ya i know i am being harsh.. we have some really good talent in India but still we are not the best in many fields where we can. For being the best we need to change our thinking. We need to start putting faith on our self. This is about being the one not someone. I guess many of my reader might have got what i wanted to share from this blog.... Please do post what you feel about it

What i write

Ok this is a really nice topic. many of my frds asked me what i write and why i write. Hmmm..... to answer this question i don't have to think much but i dídn't answered them right away as i wanted to answer my frds by writing. :)

What do i write ?
I write whatever happens near me. Whatever i feel. Whatever i think i can share over Internet. Whatever is striking to me. And let me tell you one of my writing has already attracted a legal notice. As my blog was too much straight forward and people can't digest the truth.

Why i write ?
I write because i think this is the best way to share the thoughts and ideas among people. But why blog because now a days my frds feels easy to read a web page have few paragraphs instead of a book. OK not all of my frds hate reading a book but none hate reading a web page :)

Anyway i will be updating my old and new posts if i see any post need any updates. So this post also can be awarded with updates if later on i think my writing cause or content has changed. Aur kyun na change karoon mera blog hai kabhi bhi change karoon :) :)